When I started my spiritual quest 5 years ago yesterday, one of the questions I remember discussing with my brother is the fact that God had things planned out already.
Perhaps this was something I just heard or maybe it’s biblical, but I had this thought that God has already dictated what was going to happen in our lives. As in, we are playing out pre-determined roles. Truthfully, this has always bothered me.
I remember telling my brother, ‘What’s the point in living if it’s already pre-determined?’ I recall thinking that every move, every word, every action was already foretold. I didn’t like that thought.
I’d like to believe that maybe God has a direction that He’d like us to go, and that He’s given us gifts to be the best Us we can be, but that He hasn’t laid out every inch of our lives already. I don’t know about you, but that just makes me feel like my part wouldn’t matter at all. I’m just filling a role that anyone could have filled?
I want to know that my walk here on this Earth was more than just filling a role anyone could have filled. I’d like to believe that my life wasn’t already planned out. That maybe I had some say in my own direction .. that I wasn’t just some prophecy being played out. I’d like to know that my relationship with Christ meant something to Him.
The past few years, I have really looked at prophecy and the fulfillment of it. Especially with all the election buzz. In Jesus’ time, many of the dots didn’t get connected until AFTER He had ascended back to heaven. We know this because we have the New Testament in which we see Paul connecting those dots for us.
Today, we still do the same. Although we know things are still to be played out, we do our best to guesstimate not only what has happened in relation to biblical prophecy, but what will happen. There are literally hundreds of sites that will tell you that ‘such and such’ is the play out of a particular prophecy in the Bible.
What’s interesting is that our Bible isn’t the only thing that makes predictions. The Quran does, so does the Book of Mormon, and I’m certain other religious texts. I say this because there are some that claim 9/11 was a prophecy fulfillment from the Quran and did you know that a Mormon in the White House is predicted in the Book of Mormon? Huh … interesting. Looks like it almost came true.
Personally, when I catch myself falling prey to the ‘signs’ of the time, I recall the scripture that says, ‘A wicked and adulterous generation seeketh after a sign,’ Matt 16:4. I also think about when Jesus said, ‘My yolk is easy and my burden is light,’ Matt 11:30.
I’m learning not to fret about biblical prophecy or my role in this whole thing. So maybe something I say or do was predetermined or known in advance and perhaps even revealed to someone else along the way. I’m okay with that. I’m okay with that because 1. I’ve given God permission to lead my thoughts, words, and actions. Sometimes that means I’m going to say or do things that I know are dictated by Him.
2. My relationship with Him is solid. I love Jesus and I trust Him. I trust that His intention is to save not only me, but my loved ones, and in fact, the whole world. I’m willing to be used by Him to get us there. After all, as a member of His ‘bride church,’ I believe it’s important for me to submit to His will.
3. Until I know for certain which actions He directs vs. what I direct, I’ll take responsibility for my actions. I try not to get too caught up in the signs because that scripture warns me doing so can lead me astray. Instead, taking responsibility always leads me back to the cross which lets me know … I’m still on track.
So are our lives predetermined, predestined, and already planned out? Umm .. I’m still not quite sure. Maybe, maybe not … but it doesn’t matter because I haven’t played my role and I don’t have a script to read from, so I figure I must get a say in the matter after all!
What’s funny is that I really think that one of the things that kept me from coming to Christ sooner was that I didn’t want to have my life already dictated out. Ha! Little did I realize that whether I wanted to play a part or not, I was part of the plan all along.
So glad knowing Jesus is more than just playing a role in His big show though. I’m thankful today that I really do matter to Him. 🙂